Went along to hospital today for my usual treatment (Herceptin and Pamidronate)...

Shocked that 3 of the nurses are leaving...

Tracey is going to a Royal United in Bath, such a shame as she's excellent at canulating and accessing ports.

Kristy is going to stay at RBH but is going to be a Breast Care Specialist

Sheila the vascular access nurse is off to work in Geneva 

Of course I'll miss my chats with them but more importantly they are finding it hard to replace them, apparently there is a national shortage of chemo nurses.

I'm seriously thinking of wrapping Dr C in cotton wool in case he decides to leave...would be devastated if I lost him as my consultant.

love Clare xx

Update on Jack's behaviour at school...

He's been good so far this week and as it turns out there have been quite a few Mum's who've 'had the chat' since the start of the year..

So either they're all really bad or they're all just finding where they fit in and how much they can push the boundaries.

Feel much happier now I know it's not just Jack!!

love Clare xx

Gutted..

Got called to one side at school today and one of Jack's teachers said his behaviour this week has been unacceptable...

Hitting, elbowing, answering back...even throwing himself on the floor when he doesn't get his own way.  I am so upset as I try hard to be firm with him but sometimes I just give in and let him have his own way.

I ordered quite a bit of Bakugan stuff for him yesterday (using his Xmas money) and now I know I can't give it to him until his behaviour improves.  He's ruined what should have been a nice surprise.

What frustrates me most is when either Jon or I ask why he does 'naughty' things he always says 'I don't know' or' my brain made me do it'.

Tough love this weekend...won't be going anywhere 'nice' as that would be rewarding him. May take him for a walk to feed ducks but NOT go to the park after.

No DS or Wii for him this weekend.

Love Clare xx

So relieved.

Went to see Dr C today and get the results of the scan done last week.

He said the report showed that the rib area although still inflamed was looking better than it did in October and all other areas of concern have remained stable.

He explained that the pain I was having could have been due to stopping the steroids, they would have been acting as an good anti-inflammatory and when I stopped them it may have just been aggrivated.

I'm so happy that the horrible chemo that I'm still suffering effects from did it's stuff for me.

Dr C had a look at my leg and wasn't very happy with it and thinks it's possibly cellulitis and has put me on 2 weeks of antibiotics...if t doesn't clear up he'll have another think..

So no excuse now get the leg better and get on with my life...I have a full year of stuff planned so need to be in tip top condition for it.

Love Clare xx

Jack's 1st day at full time 'Big' school today.

He looked so smart in his uniform (and also smart at the end of the day).

It's a milestone that I had thought I wouldn't get to see but thankfully I have and I did have special thoughts for Alice, Paula's daughter who sadly didn't have her Mummy to see her to school on her 1st day.

There were no tears from me as I was too busy putting everything in their place...PE kit/book bag/water bottle/lunch bag...so much to remember!!

Not quite sure what he did all day as he just said I did everything!

It was so sweet when they came out all eagerly looking for their Mummy or Daddy (or both), his friend Megan said to him "hey Jack, we get to go back tomorrow as well" - how sweet is that?!

So I'm hoping the 1st day enthusiasm stays and he likes school - unlike his Uncle Paul who hated it!!

Love Clare xx

Happy New Year.

My first 'wafflings' of 2011.

Decs down and packed away, very neatly all ready for next Christmas.

So now it's all over I can concentrate on things I have planned for this year.

First thing is to get back to healthy eating and lose some weight and feel better in myself.

I already have a few things planned to look forward to:

Mum and Dad's 60th Wedding Anniversary in March, Jack's birthday and party, Disneyland Paris.

Being brave and having Jack's party in a hall and doing it ourselves!!...must be mad.

Busy week this week, friends tomorrow for play, Jack starts school Weds, birthday visit to a friends Thurs, hospital Friday and then it'll be week 1 of 2011 over!! No wonder it all goes so fast!

Health wise - right foot and leg still giving me pain but getting better - I think?  Still on the diuretics but they are a pain as about an hour after taking them I need to go to the loo numerous times...ok if I'm indoors but when out and about it's a nuisance.

Rib pain is still there but build up of painkillers seems to be easing it a little.

Love Clare xx